Overdue

My explanation’s long overdue, I fear.
I checked it out months ago,
But it’s just been sitting on the shelf
Cultivating a blanket of dust.

I use big words. They make me feel smart.
Psychoanalysts will tell you
That I’m intellectualizing,
Satisfying some innate thrust of the ego.

Maybe that’s true.
Maybe I should try
Rationing my words,
From now on.

Personally, I think it’s just how I write.
Or how my brain compensates
For lack of sleep.
Don’t worry. I don’t get the rationale either.

There.
Is that long enough for you?
I’ll be fine if you’re fine
With dropping the fines.